My emotions is jumping everywhere and I cant help it but to be amused with my overate thoughts.
I can say that I missed Andy so much but I always wish that Danny will make the first move in reaching out. Sadly the both of them are busy and have not done anything to say HI! Though I had a small talk before the changes happen and Andy was so funny.
Weighing funny and being nice is somehow helps me to validate my illusions. Though I know that most of them are not true I still kept the hope that one day I will have the chance. Chance that I will forever be grateful and I can conclude that I can die right after he say HI!
Pathetic right? He is the only reason why I keep on moving and pushing hard to stay on my job. Thinking that we work halfway around the world – I still believe that nothing is impossible.
All I know that whenever you mention his name my ears popped and cant stop smiling. There are instances that his name keeps on popping everywhere like social media, my uber driver and on my work place. I shouldn’t put meaning into those things but still I cant help it. Because who would have that chance of getting the same name that always appear when you least expected. Could it be a reminder? Could it be a test? Could it be fate?
Who the fuck knows when all you have are those little information that don’t suffice your needs. On the other hand Danny seems to be disconnected to the word as he is not that approachable and a little distance. It makes me want him more on this type of act. It feels so challenging that makes me question myself -why is this happening.
But overall the happiness that Andy brings to my heart each time is unmeasurable. Perhaps I want him so bad that I cant deny to myself anymore. Thats kinda sad to admit because if that is the case, where should I go from here? I cant stop thinking about him and I cant stop talking about him. My world is moving around him and the sad part I don’t know if he is also thinking of me. Is he thinking of me? Is there any instances that he thought of me? Does he smiles when someone say my name or if he saw my name?
Yesterday, I couldn’t sleep and went to work appearing so tired. I guess you could say that I was drunk enough with the thought of thinking silly things that wont and will not happen. But —- I can still hope and that is the only thing I can -hope!
One day, time will tell if we are both meant for each other. I believe our creator has a great plans of each one of us. If he is not for me, that is fine as long as I know someone out there is waiting for me. For now I will continue to welcome the thoughts of being delusional and entertain myself with my imagination that he is the perfect person for me. 😘
If I can ask God one wish I will only ask him to convince Andy that he like me.. 😂😂😂😂
Have a great night! xoxo💋