Yes! Its hearts day and I am feeling a little bit sad. 😒 I am hungry for attention and affection. I am denying it to myself and I dont know why.
For the past days I been trying to find someone who can share happiness with me and not to the extent that we need relationship. I was kinda hoping for a daily chitchat. For more than you can think of, I finally succeeded. I met few good people and they are all fun. They get bored easily too because they wanted more. More that I cant even give.
Maybe it’s a natural thing but for me I am not convinced that I need to do it. What I am trying to say is sexting! Yep and I will never ever have the courage to do it. It feels wrong and it feels different. On the other hand, I have the chance to forget everything about Danny and Andy. I am pre-occupied with all the unbelievable event happen to me.
First, my job was in jeopardize and I fought hard to save it. Second, the never ending task list that somehow so tiring. Third, my mom gets crazier everyday and not in a good way or funny way.
Now that everything normalize –my feelings with Danny becomes stronger. At this point I can say that I only admire Andy for his looks and just being funny. Easy to be with and never gets dull moments. Danny is somehow testing my patience lol He is the person I can always think of. I always wish for especially when I see 11:11 and the only name comes out is Danny. I dont know how many times I should mention his name when clock stops at 11:11. I dont know why I like him and I know he can only break my heart. Maybe I just like the pain he is causing me. 😔
Yesterday, I realized that he wasn’t like the same person who wants to talk to me. He is trying to distance his self and he treated other differently. I know and I saw it. I dont know why I felt bad but all I want him so bad. I guess I will keep wishing that he will likes me.
Sad heart sad soul 😢
Be mine please………..