I cant begin to imagine what I have done to myself to get to this pointless direction. All I want from the beginning is to fine someone, who will actually give me the same amount of interest as I gave it to them. I can’t please anyone from my surroundings but I can only hope.
Having conversation with Danny the other week feels so light. But the more the days goes, it begin to flicker on my head that things will not happen again. I am truly having a hard time to keep up on the same spirit that he is showing. Like what they said lightning dont strike the same place twice.
I will always cherish some of the flirtation and sweetness he shared to me. I hope we will come to the point that we will end this mystery. And start all over again like we never had chance to meet each others. I hope I will not regret it. I need to forget him. I must!
I think I begun to be more impatient than before as I dont see any reason to stay. I started to question myself how long I will pretend. For how long I can take this madness and take the courage to step forward. I am in a complete mess and no one wants to see someone who is broken inside.
“you are the one thing that keep me smiling, that’s why I’m always wishing hard for you” these words are the perfect match to describe my feelings everyday. Some are successful and most of the time are not. Oh well! I guess I cant have everything I wanted. Today, is the day where you dont know where to pick-up yourself and you are asking for more when he dont give a shit. Maybe he does but I am too blinded to see it. -or maybe not at all.
I dont know where to start again but I will continue what I have started and I hope life will help me to conquer the world and how destiny predicts my future. xoxo 😘